Getting over Grieving

I think there is no such thing as getting over of grieving. There are stages of grief. You just move  on in life with it. There will always be moments of sad nostalgia. Thru time happy memories will be more often if only you allow your self to recognize it. I still cry but also I find myself smiling when I think of her. 3 years since she passed away. Memories of her continue to haunt me. I am still learning to accept the haunting memories to be part of me. Still learning to toughen-up.

Mom you are already in peace.

Please pray for mine.

Isn’t it Ironic

Dilemma of working as a change maker.

I am working with a group of people whom they call themselves as Activists. A group of individual who wants to bring change to society. But when change is instilled on them for personal and organizational improvement. They are highly resistant. Their resistance is greater than the great wall of China!

Change your self before attempting to change the world. 

great wall of china

Mood Journal

blog for mental health

February 6 

Insomnia – Stayed awake until 4 in the morning and woke up at 7 AM. Tried to sleep but just stayed in bed

Changes in appetite – lack of appetite and binging on junkfood

Lethargy – Felt heavy and useless

Lack of motivation – Can not motivate self to go to work

February 7 

Insomnia – took antihistamines to sleep

Changes in appetite – lack of appetite and binging on junkfood

Lethargy – Felt heavy and useless

Lack of motivation – Can not motivate self to go to work

Hopelessness – Feeling being stuck in a rut and capable to make desired changes in life

February 8 -9 

Indifferent – loss of interest in things

Physically sick – fever, sore throat, weak, bleeding

February 10

Lethargy – Felt heavy and useless

Lack of motivation – Can not motivate self to go to work

Hopelessness – Feeling being stuck in a rut and not capable to make desired changes in life

February 11

I prefer to feel indifferent rather than to be hopeless. I prefer not to feel anything than to feel anxiety and sadness. I want this to end. I need change. NOW.

Lethargy – Felt heavy and useless

Lack of motivation – Can not motivate self to go to work

Hopelessness – Feeling being stuck in a rut and capable to make desired changes in life

 

 

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