Getting over Grieving

I think there is no such thing as getting over of grieving. There are stages of grief. You just move  on in life with it. There will always be moments of sad nostalgia. Thru time happy memories will be more often if only you allow your self to recognize it. I still cry but also I find myself smiling when I think of her. 3 years since she passed away. Memories of her continue to haunt me. I am still learning to accept the haunting memories to be part of me. Still learning to toughen-up.

Mom you are already in peace.

Please pray for mine.


Home is where the heart is

Definitely now I know what this statement means. Home is where I feel comfortable, loved, and secure. It is where I seek refuge when I want to escape cruelty of the world.

I am at my dad’s house for the holiday. Same house where I grew up in. It brings back sad and happy memories. It does not feel the same anymore. I do not feel at home at the house I grew up in. The only reason that I go here is to visit my dad.

I want to go back home with love, where my heart is….

Eulogy on life priority

I want to spend my life surrounded by people who I love and sincerely love me. We take for granted people who love us knowing that they will never leave us. But nothing is certain in life. We are all mere mortals. I would rather die surrounded by  love rather than be a hero surrounded by criticism s and doubts.

Daddy care

When I was young my mom used to prepare me good food and make me a hot bath whenever I was sick. Now, as I’m not as young and mom gone, dad’s way of taking care of sick me was to buy me 1 month supply of medicine and bring me shopping. Either way both made me feel better. 🙂

Sick and alone

Its because when you are in pain you become angry at the people closest to you for not feeling the same pain. They can not exactly feel what you are going through. And will not because you do not share the same body and soul. In absolute reality there is nothing that they can do. Being sick is a personal struggle that one has to endure alone.

However, emotional support from the peolpe closest to you is crucial to keep the spirit alive and hopeful to live.